I have Dream::Again the day will Come

Still I am not satisfied with the day going on with me...all day in the bed no where to go out, but still there is something left for me ..still there is hope again I will fight with this, as I am doing from few years back ..still there is hope i will go on and i will be going ,still there is something ..Sun of hope have not set for permanently it will rise back again and so do I !!! Still again the time will come again I will be enjoying doing programming ....Still there will be again printf " I am happy this life thanks mom and dad for this beautiful life";. Still there will be again <?php echo " your love , care and hug are perfect for me thanks for your love "; ?> .Again the time will come we will smile together . 

Though I am reading and listening " Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love "

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...”

But still this day is going so longer ...i can perform my regular work on this day and it is still painful still i am reading::"Bob Marley "

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”

Full day in the bed ...a laptop on the hand connected with internet. Lots of thinking in mind and lots of work ...Programming ..aahhhaa not sufficient ..sleep ....oohhs i have to save it for dark ,silent night. but still I am undecided , still i am searching for conclusion still i am not finding what i am searching for ...once again programming ..was a again wrong option ...still i need be in bed of hospital ..still it pains ....Still tachycardia suffering me...still my heart beating abnormally ..still there is unbearable pain still my first interest programming could not solve it. Still I am talking with you..still talking with loved one still it is not working ..the worst condition has now arrived up.

No i should not be here at my bed ..no no i should not be staying here ..no no Seloken it is not sufficient for myself to treat .still i need some more pain killer for this. No no My love and my family are not enough to heal my pain ..still i need doctor .......

Still the Words from "Anaïs Nin" ::“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishing.” ,is not enough for me to give courage ...still those care and love of family and still those hugs ,love and warm love from you are making me to breath slowly.

Probably breathing slowly, probably crying with pain ...may has gone simpler for me but still it pains still it pains lot....Still i have no meaning for this pain still . Still my heart is beating irregularly still its changing in a minute still it is going slowly and rapidly in a minute.

Still people may have no hope but still I have hope ..still I have luck ..i have faith and I have bless from parents and love care for them and you too. I have dream and again that will come where we will be spending happiest life ever we had, again there would be big large and well executed program  of our life again there will be Cout “ I am very happy with this life “; again there will be other saying this for me be <strong> Ohho man you have wonderful ,great ,successful , and happiest life with your family and work that deserves you</strong>. I have dream : again the day will come with lot of smile and happiness in our life again the sun of happiest moments of our life will rise again and again our life will sang a song again we will live together.

I have a dream : again the day will come where there is no pain , there will be no irregular heart beat only there will be blessed and happiest life ever again I will be enjoying programming again their will be <? php echo “ A HAPPIEST LIFE”?>;